Past and Present Reflection

I often feel sad

When I think about the past.

And all the friendships

I lost along the way.

The years flew by

Like seconds in time

And yesterday is now today.

Walking this road

Thats always unknown

Where did everyone go?

Some stayed the same

While others have changed

And some I still don’t know

It’s scary to feel

That all of this is real

And those memories

Are beginning to fade.

Those people I cherished

Have all seem to perish

But I guess thats the trade I made.

Highschool for college,

Gaining new knowledge

Of how to let go of the past

Looking backwards

To the contributing factors

I realize it happened too fast

— Rhonda Farabee

 

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Questionable Integrity

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Every so I often,
I find that I lose
Something I have loved
and often abused
Life from the past,
Nebulous Blooms

Mixed intentions
that dig deep within.
Yearnings so discerning
but I cant give in.

If I could just speak
louder than words
Then maybe my feelings
won’t seem so absurd.

Can anyone tell me
that I have a meaning,
A reason for
this creation I’m being?

                                                   — Rhonda Farabee

Designated Resonance

Constantly fighting

To extinguish this fire igniting.

My anger is restraining

All of these thoughts pertaining,

To this.

Take a left or make a right?

 Stay in the dark or head for the light?

The channel is turning

The flame is burning.

For this.

Circles follow me everywhere I go.

In my mind, in my head, in everything I know.

Confusion has struck

I ran out of luck.

In this.

                                                           – Rhonda Farabee

Emotional Paradox

If there was ever a time
where I needed to cry,
today would be that day.
My emotions are cold.
The fears are getting old.
I have nothing left to say.

My stomach’s a wreck,
And this pain in my neck
Has worked it’s way to my heart.
All the physical stress
Has made my life a mess
My dignity ripped apart.

But here I am still standing
With future dreams I’m planning.
To understand this world in a new way.
If there was ever a time,
Where I needed to cry.
That day was yesterday.

Today I move on,
From this ticking time bomb.
Avoiding the explosion.
You set me free
Without consulting me
And now the plan’s in motion.

Now I’m walking all alone,
In darkness with the unknown.
But I find a certain comfort here.
If there was ever a time
Where I needed to cry
It’s the day I can’t shed a tear.

-Rhonda Farabee